I started this blog then gave up on it. It was partially me being lazy, part inability to update from my phone, but mainly it's because I sustained an injury. It wasn't fun in the slightest. I've been in hospital and living on my couch. I've still been participating in my derby league, but it's been really tough. Actually, it feels a hell of a lot like depression. I cry a lot. Like every day. For the stupidest reasons. And I'm not in pain. I just don't know what to do with myself and feel really useless and helpless.
BUT ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!
A big part of why I have been so down is because my body has been completely cut off from the endorphins it is so used to. I have been extremely lazy since I've gotten home. I keep putting it off for different reasons and lame excuses. But it is time to take control. I know that if I start exercising again I will feel better. I am potentially working again soon, and if not I will be at uni as of next week. That'll actually give me a reason to get up and about. And there's no reason I can't use my couch time to get my upper body in shape, and my core. Tomorrow I am going out by myself for the first time in three weeks. For someone who prides herself on being fiercely independent, it's quite a blow being unable to do things for myself. So, along with work and uni, on Saturday I looked over at my biceps and say how much they've dwindled. In only three weeks! The state of my left calf worries me, but that's to be expected when I can't walk on it. My arms? No excuse.
So what am I going to do about it? Well, I was at the gym today, and I realised that I already have pilates podcasts on my iPod! I used to do them every day when I lived in Kakadu. So I'm going to get straight back in to them. Also I hear there's something called Sit and Get Fit online. It's like exercise in a chair for old people. Sweet. Sign me up. Tomorrow when I'm out I'll get two 5kg dumbbells so I can set myself up to repuff my arms. Penergy and I did say we'd have an arm-off. So I'd better get back on that. And Frida Beater from the Rocky Mountain Roller Girls has a n90 Day Challenge blog online that has re-inspired me to get back to it. As well as all the other stuff I've mentioned.
Diet-wise, I've not been very hungry, so food hasn't really been an issue. MY dad has also just started a total protein kick, super-low-carb and full protein, so my meals have been predominantly a hunk o' meat and some vegies. It's FANTASTIC!! I'm still struggling to overcome my addiction to ice-cream. It will be overcome, though. I've been pretty good on the ol' sugar, too. And drinking lots of water. So that is a plus.
Okay, this is pretty all over the place. The crux of the matter is that I have a renewed sense of purpose. I will have plenty of physio to come, and the doctor I saw today has given me a certificate for two months off the gym which kind of frightens me, so it's definitely time to sort my shit out! My plan is to go one day weights, one day pilates, every day, no rest days. It's for two weeks for now, then I'll be able to put weight on my foot, and hopefully then I can start to swim for cardio and work on my ankle with a physio.
Bring it on. Dodge is back, baby.
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