Back On Track

Oh, how I love the roller world! I read some more of Krissy Krash's blog today (hotterinyourhotpants.wordpress.com) and every time I read I am SO inspired! She's a gorgeous person, so clever, so sweet, I am LOVING everything she writes! And I am SO excited about our Wednesday morning Skype date!

I woke up with a queasy tummy today, so had a rest day. I am finding rest days so frustrating! Now that I am allowed to exercise I feel like making up for all the lost time! And I am on such a roll, literally and figuratively. However, what goes up must come down, and there's no way I wanna come down this close to LA.

I watched Charm City play Rocky Mountain this morning. Oh jeebus. They're so awesome. And tonight I watched Gotham vs Philly. Such strong leagues, such great teams. The way they move is incredible. And every time I watch them skate I learn so much.

I digress! Food log:
•3 rye Cruskits with 3 slices of turkey and 2 boiled eggs
•apple
•Subway 6 inch Veggie Patty on wheat with lettuce, cucumber, carrot, olives and jalapenos
•Kate Morgan banana shake
•boiled egg
•Baked Honey Lentils - lentils, water, garlic, soy sauce, dash of honey, frozen peas and corn. Tick of approval!

I got home tomorrow from my housesitting job. Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay! I might be doing a boot camp class with a friend from work too. How excitement!

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Rough but ready

Today was a bit iffy. I got to go back to training, which was partly great and partly quite difficult. There was a bunch of things I struggled with that I hadn't expected. It was somewhat demoralising and I had to keep shaking myself out of the mental funk and realise there will just be some things that I don't rock at this stage. It was tough. But now I know what to work on this week and I will get there, sooner rather than later.

I was also quite malnourished today. I didn't eat enough before training which ended in a total burn-out midway through Hour Four, when I was coaching, and a mega-puke when I got home. It is silly that I didn't think to accurately fuel up before training, but I've never felt the crash like that before! Wowzahs. I will definitely be making a point of it to others from here on in.

So my workout was 3 hours of derby training, plus another two hours on skates, although it was just drifting, some hitting, and a lot of lying down. Food is like this:

•latte
•apple
•Kate Morgan Mint-Choc mel replacement shake (very tasty but not for derby days. In fact, I would definitely rate them as pre- or post-training meals, or a part of. That's cross training, not derby!)
•carrot
•latte
•carrot (to ease pukie feeling)
•tiny apple & some chocolate peanuts (very pukie/wiped out at this stage)
•loss of apple + peanuts (sorry :-p)
•2 rye Cruskits with 3 slices of turkey
•Roast potato, chicken breast and peas, corn & carrot with drizzle of honey

My dinner has a few things I wouldn't typically endorse, like a hunk o' potato lateish at night and the honey EVER as it's purely sugar, but I planned it strategically to replace what my body had lost, what it needed for recovery and what I had neglected to eat earlier in the day. Same goes for the later snack, that was an after-chuck thing. I need to stop referencing vomit so I'm off. Peace, blogosphere.
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P.R.I.D.E!

I am SO proud of myself! And what's better is I've never felt so supported in an endeavour of fitness and wellbeing as I do right now. The only minor hurdle still is my office, but that's only to be expected. Yesterday I went to a very important league meeting that went all day. There was no coffee, but there was an abundance of food, good and bad. I steered clear of all the bad food (I had one mini-Toob), and the post-meeting wine, and felt all the better in myself for it. I went for ice cream after a social skate and munched an apple. I saw I Heart Hiroshima in the Valley on a whim and drank water. And I did not feel deprived at all. I feel extremely pleased with and proud of myself. Sometimes it's difficult to say no, not necessarily because you want whatever's on offer, but because it's a social norm eat up and drink up when you're offered, and even when I'm a megabitch I pride myself on the manners I was raised with and find it hard to reject people in any way, shape or form. But the truly great thing is how supportive people have been of me the past few days. My leaguemates have told me they think it's inspirational and strong that I am doing this. My back-in-the-day booze-swindling best friend told me she has a lot of respect for me to have my convictions and to be sticking with them (as we watched an ex bash her heart out on the drums). She also accidentally reminded me that there is a Sober February push going on, so if I ever doubt myself or feel like I am struggling to say no, I can always fall back on that. I am proud of myself and feel good in my body that I am doing the right thing. I can see changes I haven't seen previously in my shape. I feel strong and fit and ready to tear it up. And I am genuinely excited about the rest of the month.

Here's what I ate:

•Smoothie: grapes, banana, whey powder, non-fat Greek yoghurt and Zymil's milk
•Popcorn (about 5-6 handfuls)
•Carrot and celery sticks with hommus
•Kate Morgan caramel meal replacement bar (it has chocolate! So long, craving suckahs!)
•Smoothie: vanilla creme whey powder, mixed berries, soy milk
•apple

It looks like a lot there. I was somewhat grazing all day due to the semi-structured flow of the meeting. Oh! Oh my gosh! By the way, Kate Morgan is rad. The bar was reasonably filling, but I would say it's more of a Decent Snack Replacement than a Meal Replacement (I would recommend it for pre- or post-training nutrition), but ooooooh the shake! This blog is for Saturday, but it's Sunday morning now and I just tried the Mint Choc shake and it is HEAVEN! It's the right consistency, it tastes GREAT with water (as opposed to shakes that say are great with water and actually taste like crap without milk), it dissolves really well so it's not 'bit-ie' (I hate that) and it tastes like Peppermint Aero in a shaker. I will see how long the feeling of fullness lasts, which is the real test, but right now I think I might be on to a real winner.

For my workout, I did a warm-up set of 15 at 3kg, then two working sets at 4kg. It ran in a circuit like this:

•Seated Shoulder Press
•Upright Rows
•Bent Over Lateral Raises
•Bent Over Single-Arm Rows

Followed by supersetting 8-Beat Bicep/Hammer Curls* x 16-20 and Tricep Dips for 3 sets. Followed by almost all of the Roller Derby Workout DVD. I was short on time so I skipped EstroJen's Booty Call in order to do the Off-Skates with Punk In Da Trunk because I find it great for stretching my ankle in different ways. I also attended a Flood Relief Social Skate at Albany Creek Skateaway from 7-9:30pm but probably only skated about an hour to an hour and a half for talking, too. Plus the rink was INSANELY busy and in my state, plus my leaguemate Bermuda Rose having busted both bones in her leg to a crowded rink, my nerves were pretty shot. I didn't feel agile enough to battle the kiddies for some of the time, but I was there for the socialising more than the skating anyway.

*8-Beat Bicep/Hammer Curl explanation: with an underhand/regular grip, hold weights at hip-height, curl up halfway & hold for 2 counts, curl up to shoulders and hold for 2 counts, curl down to waist and hold for two counts, then to hips and reset at 2 counts. Switch to Hammer Grip and repeat, alternating each time you curl. Going slower increases the burn and ah lov et.
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Willpower Queen!

I am she! I am saying no to everyone, to the chips and the biscuits and wine and the low-cal low-carb gluten-free whatever chocolate bars, no probs! Of course, it's only been two days, but I was hungover for one of them and I will keep saying no. Like a boss ;-)

I can't remember what I ate yesterday, but trust me, it was pretty darn good. I also did two sets of an extended arm workout, which didn't feel that burnie but was hard because the weights were much heavier. Today was like dis:

•brekkie smoothie (yay!) w half a banana, grapes, whey powder, non-fat Greek yoghurt, and Zymil's
•apple
•smoothie (store-bought) w yoghurt, aloe vera (um, LOVE!) mango & pineapple
•2 rye Cruskits w turkey meat
•falafel in gluten-free wrap w stir-fried vegies and hommous
•popcorn

For a workout, I did a 40 minute Tao Bo sesh, and an hour social skate with a friend. Tomorrow we have a big strategic planning session which will involve high stress & high snacks. I'll pre-package my own healthy options (like boiled eggs & maybe some smoothies) and I'll be on my way. Then a Flood Relief Social Skate with all the rollergirls from far and wide, and spending the night with my dearest Didgert!
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One month to go!

Australia Day! What can you say, eh?
 
EXCEPT that it is time to ramp this shit up. I have less than one month until I fly out, and now I am also meeting up with Krissy Krash, 2010 captain of the LA Ri-ettes (All-Stars), health and nutrition coach, and Derbalife creator and founder. Holy hell, do I wanna look good or what?!
 
So, I drank yesterday, and I probably had all 6 beers of my six pack. And I enjoyed every one of them! Next weekend is a great champion roller girl's birthday, and if I drink at all, it'll be vodka soda's for me, although I'd prefer not to. It's like liquid potatoes, and I really don't need that at this stage of my journey!
 
I'm really missing my shakes recently. The RDWC doesn't really allow for them. I have to admit, I've been using the challenge as more of a guide than following it super strictly. The workouts are good, but not really enough for me, so I have been doing my own, and using the meal plans occasionally, more as a motivator. I think it's time to bust out the ol' blender and get back in to the shakies, though. They're low-cal, cheap and sooooo filling! And delicious. Crazy delicious. Did I mention that? 
 
My workouts are definitely working for me. I don't seem to be shifting the scales, but I am seeing growth in the right places and reduction in others. Except for when my belly is full of beer. My legs are getting sexy and defined, especially in the thigh region, or "derby powerhouse", as I have just decided to name them. "These static holds are really burning my derby powerhouse". "My derby powerhouse are straining my short shorts!" Much more motivating, no? My arms are getting some sweet shape too and I can feel mega-abs waiting to be released from their fat-encased home. They've been sore all last week and I've only just started working them again. Silly core! I need you to kick some ass! 
 
So again, I am resetting my resolve and preparing to enter this last stretch of hardcore hottness and continuing to fuel my derby powerhouse - the whole lot of it - on this downhill stretch. Pre-planning my meals has been a great step for me, I was never completely in to it before but it has helped a lot, curbing my eating habits and letting me know what I have to look forward to and controlling m behaviour there. I have been the Queen of No Sugar in my office, now I will step it up and be the King of Eating At The Right Times and the Ace of Less Mindless Snacking. Ah yes, derby has gotten me in to this, the references will keep me pushing through!
 
So farewell to you for now blogety blog, until tomorrow. There will be a large hangover breakfast, healthy of course, then you'll see that when Dodge&Bolt says something is going to happen, it's damn well gonna happen!

Days 39/30 & 38/31

I took a weekend away from the computer to catch up with some awesome people, so this will be a little hazy. It wasn't a great weekend but it wasn't a total blowout, either. I'm blogging for the record, not so much the pride!

Saturday
Workout: Circuit with former Australian Judo Olympian. Good times! After a 10 minute walk/jog (yes, I jogged, and loved it!), the first round was done for one minute with a 30 second break, and the second was higher intensity for 45 seconds with a 15 second rest. Let me just say, ouch.

• Cycling - standing, on a RPM-style bike, increasing intensity as we go
• Elliptical machine
• Sumo squats with kettlebell
• Boxing - with a punching bag on the ground, we sat on it and did 20 punches, then jumped up, sit back down and repeat
• Rower machine
• Medicine ball throws - throwing the ball down as hard as possible, to the side, in the middle, and to the other side
• Roll-Ups - you held a stick out at shoulder height, it had a long string tied to it with weights at the bottom, and you had to roll it all the way up and back down as fast as you could. Doesn't sound like much, but holyjeebusshitehole it was not fun!
• Tricep Dips
• Ball Tuck - feet on the stability ball, in a prone plank position, roll your legs in to your chest in a crunch/curl/tuck
• Ball Chest Press - standing chest presses with a large weighted ball
• Walk-Overs - holding two 7.5kg weights (I pussied out and only held on because it kinda hurt my ankle to have that much weight on one side), step up onto a box from the left, then down, then back over on the right etc

Wholey moley!  I thiiiiiiink my food was like this. I'm probably being kind :-p

• Pre-training cruskit w pb, coffee
• Porridge w blueberries
• Carrot
• Cookie
• Slice or rye w pb x 2
• Thai takeaway - Spicy Tofu w Vegies (yuck, by "vegies" they meant onion and some carrot
• Weight Watchers White Chocolate and Raspberry ice-creams

Highlights included spending time at the shops with my mummy, seeing my friend Amy for the first time in ages, and playing with my little doggie Buster. Oh, and a muscle soak bath, well needed!

Sunday
Sunday was Funday! I got to train for the first time (yaaaay!) and meet all the fresh meat! Sadly Jacks and Queens training was cancelled, but it was kind of cool because it meant Dee Dee Dainja, Buzza, Bloody Fiasco and I got to go to the pub and have a post-training beer! Down side was that I ate really badly. Whatever. I was literally stranded for a few hours, so shut up. Tbh I didn't really care :-p

Workout: Two hours of freshies, planks and push-ups in the morning

Food:

• PB & rye, coffee
• Apple
• Nut bar (totally approved by Good Health & Fitness Magazine, which always surprises me)
• 2 x rye & wheat pitas w nothing on them
• McDonalds (!!!!! I don't even like that shit! I was stranded and STARVING) Seared Chicken Deluxe burger, small fries, Coke Zero
• Cruskit w turkey and cheese

Highlights: fresh meat!!!!!, beers with the laydeez, car rides with Buzza to avoid awful bus times, brekkie with my folks, and unexpectedly cheap fruit and vegie shopping before settling in at my Noosa home again.

Day 40/29

So, I swore I wouldn't be one of those people, but I'm really glad the working week is over. I don't exactly have a relaxing weekend planned, but it's all set to be a goodie anyway!

Seeing as I had a little spaz of overeating yesterday, I am attempting to make up for it today. I brought a particularly small lunch in to work today, so added my almonds to it to beef it up a little, and was hungry later. I guess that's the thing about portion conrtol - I always worry about my meals being too big, but I also need to keep an eye on not making them too small, either.

It's funny, this little bloggrety. There are a lot of things that I write that are totally common sense, I know them, I tell other people about them, I read about and discuss them constantly, but this is the first time and place that I actually take stock of the ways that I do not apply them in my daily life. That is the reason for keeping a log though, and from my mistakes, like I wrote earlier, I learn. Oh dear. The Fridge Philosopher strikes again. Whatever, suckitup, reader.

I did a Tae Bo dvd today, the first time I've done an advanced one all the way through.  I usually do the beginner, but seeing as my ankle has been coming along really well, I decided to amp it up. And boy, was I amped! The ab sections aren't exactly ideal. there's a lot of thrusting and pushing and going really really fast, but 'we' in the exercise community have obviously learned a thing or two since the mid-90's, and now know that taking it slow increases the burn. So I do that, but because I am using the dvd as cardio, sometimes my muscles are still sore from the beating they've taken earlier in the week, for example, my still-twingie abs (they are stil getting worked, pain is weakness leaving my body, blahblahblah), and my freakin' sore booty, courtesy of EstroJen. But I did it! I also went to the physio, he's pretty happy with it, but not, like, over the moon, so I will work it extra hard all week, and deal with the swelling, so that on Friday when we go at it again it will be much, much better. He also laughed at me and my awful hand-eye co-ordination, which, if you've ever seen my play dodgeball on skates, is nonexistant.  Food's like this:

• Cheese srambled eggs w one eg and two egg whites
• Slice wholewheat w pb
• Way-too-small portion of turkey chilli w almonds thrown in
• 4 pieces of raspberry licorice - eaten before I registered what I was doing and cut it the hell out!
• Smoothie w banana, blueberries and acai berries
• Cruskit w heese + turkey
• Roast chiken breast with a roast potato and spinach, carrot and tomato salad.

Tomorrow I am off to see my derby friend Dollslayer and do a circuit with her house mate, who is a personal trainer. I wonder what they have in store! I want to talk to her about doing personal training sessions too and what I should do to bust outta my gut-rut!

Day 41/28

This turned in to a cheat day. I had a god-awful sleep as I came under attack by the heaven's and dog (tried to jump on the bed while I slept, scared the crap outta me). Woke up totally out of it, couldn't bring myself to do cardio but I did my new shoulder/back/arms routine and was rocking shakey wrists from the get-go. I knew I'd worked them hard but obviously not as hard as I thought! Same as the big abs circuit I did on Monday, I thought I was all over that and was kind of disappointed they didn't hurt more but MAN were they aching when I tried to engage them! Felt sickly again, and finally made the tomorrow (Day 40/29 in Blog World) connection that I usually snack on some protein before I do an intense workout. I used to do that, then stopped when I wasn't working as hard, or was doing pilates and it's not advisable to eat for a few hours prior, so I'll make sure I have a few almonds before hitting I tie up my joggers from now on.

As for eating yesterday? Holy hell. I was a machine! I obviously needed the food for recovery, my body was all over the shop, sore and tired. I'm quite proud that with the exception of two bites of a caramel slice and half a home-made organic nut-filled rocky road my never ending hunger was filled with predominantly good foods. I just at a lot of them. It went a little like this.

Actually, before I start, I'd like to point out that I'm not proud of this, but if i don't log, I'll never learn, right? I have to conceed my triumphs and my failures, or something. Okay, here goes:

• pb & rye Cruskit
• Cruskit w turkey & cheese
• half a cup of porridge
• turkey, spinach and tomato on rye wrap
• 1/2 rye wrap with Vegemite
• choc attack (see above)
• smoothie w pineapple, guava and mint
• 12-15 almonds
• rye Cruskit w pb & honey (lame attempt to curb sugar craving way too late)
• Turkey hotpot w 1 slice whole wheat
• 80g popcorn, lite butter

Yup, that's what I ate. Somehow it looks a lot less scary than I expected it to. I think burning calories is makin' me a hungry lady. I just gotta make sure I'm not undoing all the hard work!

Day 42/27

Yet another ass-kicking workout!  I did the Roller Derby Workout dvd all the way through, something which I've not done before.  I was SHAKING at EstroJen's Booty Call.  Phew!  And I was sweating!  I did up the abs routines a little, and used weights where I could.  For example, I used a 4kg weight on my back for the plank, and did a prone plank to do the skate tap thingies.  I did a big ab day on Monday to try and exhaust my abs, which I didn't think I did really as they weren't particularly sore yesterday or today, but Bio Diesel's workout that is usually fairly easy was quite difficult today.  Score! 

I felt pretty sick afterwards.  I was shaking, and felt pukie.  I had a bigger-than-usual breakfast which made it all better.  I think yesterday choosig celery as a snack was a good idea, but I didn't back it up with some protein, like hommus or natural pb.  Today I've packed 2 boiled eggs, some cheese and a rye-and-wheat wrap to munch before training!!! 

I did originally think that today should be a cardio day, which it could have been, but 2 hours on skates should kind of take care of that.  Plus, there's always tomorrow too!  I'd really love to do longer workouts, ramp up my weights then overload on cardio, but alas, I'm already up mega-early and I'm not terribly strong or motivated in the evenings.  I certainly do what I can, and I'm concerned that if/when I exaserbate my ankle in the morning, I am distracted by it all day, and don't focus on work appropriately. 

Speaking of which, my ankle is coming along quite nicely!  It is swollen for the better parts of most days, but as the physio told me, it never swelled before because I haven't asked much of it up to now.  But I'm very excited and proud of the movement I'm getting out of it.  Yes, mum, when it swells or hurts I back off, but I sure don't if I don't have to!

So my eating plan will go like this today:
Breakfast: 1 cup of porridge w half a banana, 2 rye Cruskits with pb (protein, I swear!!)
Lunch: Left-over turkey chilli, possibly on a wrap
Pre-training: 2 boiled eggs w cheese on wrap
Dinner: Chicken stirfry
Snack: ... gee, I haven't planned yet!  I'll take some almonds.

I hope you're having a magnificent day.  I feel excellent after my workout, and I can see some solid changes in my body.  What a great way to start the day!

Day 43/26

Okay, holy hell, I'm typing this as I eat my breakfast and just after finishing my workout, and I an barely lift my arms.  I don't want to forget what I did, so here it goes

Seated Dumbbell Shoulder Press: 2 x 10 at 4kg, 1 x 10 at 3kg
Dumbbell Upright Row: 2 x 10 at 4kg, 1 x 10 at 3kg
Lateral Shoulder Raise: 1 x 10 at 4kg, 2 x 10 at 3kg
Bent Over Lateral Raise: 1 x 10 at 4kg, 2 x 10 at 3kg
Dumbbell Curls: pausing halfway and at the top: 3 x 12 at 4kg
Chest Press w Tricep Extension: 3 x 12 at 4kg

If doesn't sound too insane when I write it, but trust me, I went to fatigue.  Ouch.

Food is like this:

Breakfast: 2 googie eggs (like hard boiled eggs but still googie, mashed in a cup, YUM), 2 rye Cruskits w pb (my bread is stale and there is no toaster)
Lunch: Tomato soup w rye Cruskit
Snack: Celery
Dinner: Turkey chilli
I was pretty disappointed with myself last ngiht for needlessly chucking down those water crackers w pb. I tried to avoid them but I think I reacted to my hunger too late with the tea.  I will drink green tea today in the office when I'm hungry.  I know celery isn't on the RDWC but I'm carrying a bit of water weight at the moment and am trying to encourage it to bugger off.  Plus it's delicious and doesn't make me feel bad about eating it.

Looking at hotels today, woo!  Can't WAIT to find something for the first few days that I'm there.  I'm officially sharing with a Canadian girl over RADness, which is mega exciting! It would be great if she was coming early too, I will keep you posted.  Eiter way, West Hollywood, here I come!!

Day 44/25

HOLY BEJEEZUZ! I GO TO LA IN 44 DAYS!!!

Yes, that's right. i have NO IDEA where my original count came from, but I have about HALF THE TIME of what I thought I had.  Awesome.

Well, if that ain't motivation to ramp it up, I don't know what is!

I ramped up the workout today.  Yesterday I skated for 2 hours coaching, did a little bit of training skating, but I stopped an hour early to save my ankle for today.  But, ooh, my crossovers were soooo much better!  I even did a mini plow stop.  Lateral movement in my ankle is delicious!

I took the dog and cat for a walk this morning.  I feel pretty bad for the poor things because I can't walk them far.  My foot plays up, which is stupid, but that's rehab, I guess!

The rest of the morning's workout was fairly intense.  I think I will go for a bike ride and hurt my abs for real tonight.  I was reading about how you should train your abs like every other muscle - all out until it hurts, and with rest days.  It went lyke dis:

30 minutes Tae Bo "Get Ripped" beginners, followed by advanced Advanced "8 minute workout"
Scissors - 2 sets of 10 reps
Plank with 4kg weight on back - 1 minute
Single-Arm Plank - 30sec each side
Glute Bridge with 4kg plate pullover - 2 sets of 15
Planted single-side bicycle crunches - 3 sets of 10 each side

And eatin'?
Breakfast: 2 boiled eggs, slice of toast with pb
Snack: celery
Lunch: Chickpeas w spinach and tomato on rye wrap
After Work: 3 x rye Cruskits w pb
Dinner: Grilled chicken w cumin and cinnamon (um, hello, I am a genius), w celery, spinach, broccoli and pine-nuts
Just Now and Already Regretting it: 6 watercrackers w pb and a cup of English Breakfast

Yes, I do always get like this with a new tub of pb.  Especially when it was $6 and half of it tipped over and spread its sticky, asshole self all over the rest of my groceries.

Ankle is swollen after today and yesteray's workout.  Tomorrow I'm doing arms chest, shoulders and back to give my legs a rest.  I really wish I had a FitBall up here!

Hooray for pay day!

I’m feeling much better now, much more prepared to start the Roller Derby Workout Challenge for real.  I am looking forward to Sunday’s meal plan so I can stock up appropriately.  I am a week late, but I’ve still tried.  This morning I was woken at 4am but the animals I’m babysitting so I did one of the Tae Bo dvds.  It starts with a 30 minute beginner class, and I was sweeeeating after that, but I also decided I could push myself some more, so I did 40 minutes of the Advanced class that followed.  Holy hell.  I had to stop because my abs literally refused to co-operate anymore.  They’re not sore now, so I think it was just because of the speed and intensity, rather than the actual moves themselves, so I am sure that over time it will become much more manageable.  

And on the RDCW, I’ve decided that, for me, I won’t be eating the little bits of chocolate they allow.  It’s probably something about teaching you moderation, but seriously, I have no self control.  2 squares is always 8.  ALWAYS.  So I’m just not going to do it for the 7 weeks.  It’s really not that long, and besides, it’s like $4 more for LA BABY!  Plus, y’know, Bonnie ‘n junk.

I had a visit to the physio today.  I had to tell him I can only afford to come once a week, cry, how lame.  But I need the moolaf elsewhere.  He ot my jumping a doing cool stuff like that.  And ended up deciding we only need one session next week anyway, he seems to be pretty impressed with how quickly I'm healing, SCORE!

Due to my 4am wake-up barks, I was pretty well knackered by the time I reached the office, and munched down some pretzels (the whole wheat baked ones) to keep myself alive, or I might have died.  True story.   Things went like this:

Breakfast: Porridge w quarter of a banana; apple

MT: Coffee, pretzels

Lunch: Steamed vegies and a tin of tuna

AT: Pretzels (note to self, buy something better for office cravings!)

Dinner: Chicken and vegies

L Word Marathon: Popcorn

Day 82/20

I'm sorry, blog, but I"m going to stop apologising.  Sometimes life just gets in the way of blogging.  Suck it up. 

Yesterday was AMAZING!  I skated again for the first time.  Holy schnikies.  It was the BEST.  I can derby stop, cross-over and skate backwards.  I didn't try a lot of other things, but that was enough.  I was ever so happy! So exercise was two hours of skating.  SQUEEEEE!!!!

Eatin' was like dis:
peanut butter on rye (I was home!!)
coffee
scrambled eggs with another pb
smoothie with banana, pb and a dash of honey - store bought, I am broke as hell, and the nigght before I was flooded outof my house, so we do what we can, right?
4 cruskits
apple
8 squares 70% dark chocolate


Not the greatest eating day.  I have been totally butt-ass broke, but I get paid today so I can buy vegies for the RDWC and junk like that.  Very exciting.

OH MY GOSH I CAN'T BELIEVE I SKATED!

It was the best.  I'm so so so stoked.  I'm going to do teh Roller Derby Workout dvd today, so I'm getting on skates for breakfast stuff, then do the workout!  Oh, I LOVE roller derby!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(all these exclamation marks and more are completely necessary)

Day 84/18

Oh blugger!

I've been horrible for recording. Sorry folks. I've been feeling pretty low because of the weather and being unable to exercise with no cardio outlet and thought I'd put on 5kg since I injured myself. Turns out it was only 3. Which is pretty bad, but is no where near as bad as I thought it was, so I can live with that. But I gotta say, it still hurts!

So instead of dwelling, upwards and onwards!

Food today:
Breakfast: Oatmeal/porridge with a tablespoon of peanut butter and 2 tbsp of yoghurt. I added the pb because Frida Beater says she adds it to hers, but it was kinda yucky. I think that's because it's not my brand, and Frida uses the real shiz, not this stuff I borrowed from my new host house
Lunch: Small Red Delicious, Subway 6-inch on multigrain with turkey, swiss cheese, lettuce, cucumber, carrot, olives and jalapenos. I tried to stick to the RDWC meal plan, however I was poorly stocked so got as close as I could
Snack: Almonds
Dinner: Chicken w stir-fried vegies, with a dash of soy sauce, dark chocolate

I am trying to stick to the Roller Derby Workout Challenge. It is going to be difficult this week, as I am literally broke. The only money I have will *hopefully* cover my physio tomorrow, then I wait until Thursday. O holy jeebus, it's going to be a looooong week! I sure need some more vegies. But I don't think I can afford them!!! THAT's scary!

Workout, 1 set of each of the following:
20 push-ups
20 squats
50 crunches
25 side crunches per side
20 jack-knives per side
30 reverse crunches
20 mule kicks each side
10 leg circles, each way, each leg
10 backwards leg circles, each way, each side
20 open-leg drops
10 back extensions

I think there was other stuff. It was pretty soft, I was really just rolling around watching tv. I felt bad about not workout out for real for the past two days, so I had to do something before bed.

I ordered a kickboxing dvd today so I can ramp up some low-impact cardio. On top of that, it will help me work on my agility, just like DeRanged! Crusssssssh!!

Shocker! Day 87/15

Who's a naughty non-blogger!  I am so sorry bloggerinies.  I've been megaballs tired and going to be extremely early so I've not posted!  No excuse, though.  I'll try and remember yesterday and post that, then I'll post a new blog for today!  What a bad girl!
 
Workout:
2 sets of supersets that I changed up a little.  I was really not feeling it yesterday morning, at 5am.  I had received bad news about my leg, which is all wiped out now and I'll talk about in a minute, but I was pretty down and therefore pretty slack.  I'm already kinda bored, might re-evaluate the routine this weekend:
•Chest Flies x 12, Skull Crushers x 12
•Chest Press w Crunch x 15, Hammer Curls x 15
•Clean 'n Press x 12, Alternate Arm Bent Over Row x 12
•Single-Leg Drop x 12 each leg, 1 min plank on knees (boot = awkward)
 
I was a bit proud of myself for reigning in some emotional eating yesterday.  I had the Bad News Bear Surgeon tell me it would be 6 weeks until I could skate.  I managed to NOT CRY, which is huge for me at the moment, which is crap because I've never been much of a crier until roller derby.  I also managed to suck on 2 small tsps of peanut butter instead of smothering it all over toast as a comforter.  I also ignored the ice cream, and instead of caving to the craving, I had a swig of Zymils milk to cover the dairy urge.  Minor win for the win!  I can't really remember what I ate, but I'll give it a shot.
 
•Banana smoothie
•Apple
•2 little tsps of pb
•Dry salad w spinach, grape tomato, carrot, cucumber, green beans and 4 Bean Mix (my friend and I have this thing about 4 beans. 3 you're missing out and 5 you're going overboard. Really, 4 Bean Mix is where it's at)
•Nectarine 
•Handful of nuts
•Beautiful chicken with similar salad, but with lime, pepper and olive oil dressing (not so nice) and corn on the cob (so god damn nice I miss it just thinking about it)
•Swig of skim milk
 
I know fruit is high in sugar but cut a girl a break!  That is pretty much processed-food-free and a little more than I expected but definitely back on track.  Score 1 day for Dodge!
 
After lunch I went to the physio, but that is another story.  Actually, I have a whole lot to say from 3 days of no entries, so you can read it now.
 
On Wednesday I went to see the surgeon and he said my bone is about 80% healed.  Hooray, right?  Kind of.  He proceeded to say that I need to wear my boot full-time for another week then I could ween off it and take it off at home.  Then in a further 4 weeks, so 6 weeks now, I would be allowed to do the things I love, namely work out and skate.  He also said I couldn't do squats.  This is when I thought WOO UP THERE SOLDIER, wtf are wrong with squats?  Apparenly it's too much weight on my leg.  Ummm...  Where my body weight is evenly disributed across both of my legs?  Really?  Okay.  Cue emotional semi-break-down.  More like confidence-and-psyche breakdown.
 
THEN yesterday (Thursday, or The Day This Blog Is Dated) I went to the physio.  HE may have my babies.  Or I his.  However that works out.  Anyway, HE said, direct quote, "I see no reason why you should still be wearing the boot.". Success!  He went on to say lots of lovely things like "I see no reason why, when you're comfortable walking again, you can't skate.  Not training, but skating" and "Of course you'll be fine in LA.  You might not be your best, but you'll still be good", and "O.o  Do a squat.  How is that putting extra pressure on your leg?". Ladies and gentlemen, we have a lesbian game-changer.  Legit.  (Side-note: I heard these kids on the bus saying "legit" like it's the cool thing to do so I have been sarcastically peppering it through my conversation recently, as in taking the piss, but as we all know, it will soon morph in to my regular use of language and I will not remember where sarcasm ends and I begin.  It's inevitable.  Legit) (Second side-note: that last legit was the actual sarcastic kind).  Effectively, he not only massaged my leg, he massaged my heart, and other long-hardened lower extremities (not legit), and now I have a renewed sense of vigour and love of life that I can only attribute to this wonderful doctor-man.
 
This, however, raises certain questions.  Not so much of my own, but of my concerned Daddy Dearest.  There is a school of thought that maybe, just maybe, the surgeon is a little bit more qualified to tell me to calm the cluck down.  Whatevs.  I've decided to blend their advice, take it a little easy, but still push it so that I can heal.  The physio said that I haven't experienced any pain because I haven't asked much of my ankle, so now I have to (direct quote again) "push it a little so you can be ready in time for LA".  Woo woo!

So that was then, and on to now!

Day 89/13

Ah-ha! You might have noticed how I slipped yesterday right by you. I think that goes to show that it was a hell of a write-off. I knew it would be! And today was a naughty hangover morning that marked THE END of the silly season! I certainly pumped up the exercise to try and cover for it early on. I doubt it worked. There was about 3 beers, a champagne, 2 glasses of wine, and cheese, chips and chocolates ahoy!

The Roller Derby Workout Challenge starts in t-minus 6 days! I started eating pretty badly, but I'm making up for it for the rest of the day.

•2 x pb+rye
•Scrambled eggs with prosciutto
•Carrot
•2 x biccies (they were yum. And the hangover was the end of the bad run!)
•Half a cup of quinoa and a tin of tuna with a mix of spices
•Steak with salad
•ice cream (well, I tried)
•2 glasses of wine

I started today hungover, by midday I was working on the positives, but by the afternoon... Blergh. Feeling extremely negative. Led to emotional eating and drinking. I've made to first step by identifying my trigger, I just have to work on the second step, the avoiding the traps.

Day 91/11

Hey! How cute! Day 91, or 11, is also 1/1/11. Awesome.

Happy new year! Mine was supremely uneventful. I watched Singin' In The Rain for the first time and was in bed by 10:30. Today I'm feeling completely wasted, like written off. I'm getting a bit over the whole business. I ate a lot today and didn't work out. I think I'm a little disillusioned at the moment. It could also just be my body trying to heal that's exhausting me. But tomorrow's a new day so I will throw myself right back in to it. Phone calls will be made to the fabulous Fury should I sink any further. My parents will be home tomorrow. And the derby wives are coming round. There'll be drinking but I'll try and eat smart, plus the work out. I'm getting a little impatient about taking off my boot. It would make cycling so much easier, and walking, and I could start physio.

"Slipping" seems to be a bit of a theme this week. The Roller Derby Workout Challenge starts in a few days. I would like to utilise it to find friends in LA, and possibly having others on the same quest will help. I've been eating fairly well, just a little snack-heavy, or dessert-heavy the past few days. All of it's involved having friends here, so of course I'm going to relax, it's celebratory.

That being said! I watched an incredible Nike clip on fb this week that carried the theme "No More Excuses". I think it's a wonderful idea for a new years resolution. My friend thinks it carries negative connotations instead of positive ones, which I think is an important point. I've not locked on to the full commitment of, say, Queen Elizabitch and Frida Beater, which I attribute to my injury. It is around that time of the month when I slack off every month, y'know, so I am not beating myself up about it. Again, my focus should be on strength. And to find strength, sometimes I must embrace my weaknesses.

This is what I've eaten:
•Museli
•Pb + rye
•Apple
•Quinoa tabouli
•Falafel
•Cheese + crackers
•Pb + rye
•Quinoa from the other day w a tin of tuna
•Diet coke

So, really, it's not been bad food, just a lot of it. I took the dog for a walk, so that was exercise-ie, and I think is also why I'm so beat the past two days. A work out at home is quite different to a real walk outdoors!

I just want to be better now. It's that home stretch thing I said I wouldn't get. Hehe, I should really know myself better by now.

Day 92/10

It's really Saturday. I had neglected to post yesterday, so I'm making up for it today, but I can't remember what I ate. I came home supremely tired from a pretty big walk (well, what constitutes a big walk for me these days) and had a little OMFGSUGAR fit, and scoffed a few mouthfuls of ice cream and a Lindt ball. Then when I was tipsy last night I had a hissy fit and threw out all the food that lives in our "naughty corner". I think this is the rest of what I ate:

•Banana smoothie + coffee
•Cappuccino
•2 x corn thins w pb
•Sumo Salad Chicken and Grilled Mushroom salad - holy crap, it was delightful
•Sugar spaz-out
•3 falafel balls with quinoa tabouli - also amazing, if I may say so myself. I only really helped make it, but still, we did good
•1 x Hahn Super Dry, 2 glasses of Wither Hills sav blanc
•bowl of ice-cream while watching Singin' In The Rain.

Fairly big arm workout too. I did 2 sets of each of these, as supersets, 12-15 reps:

Superset 1: Chest Flys; Skull Crushers, Chest Press w Crunch
Superset 2: Single Arm Bent Over Row, Hammer Curl
Superset 3: Bicep Curl, Clean and Press (deadlift to shoulder press), Reverse Flies

I went to have a major ab sesh, but the ice cream and chocolate from the night before got in the way, and after 50 crunches I had a little pukie, which is really not conducive to a good workout, so I quit while I was behind. We took the dog for about a half hour walk too. Walking is really quite energy draining. I'm better at working out at home. Tiredness, do not want, go away now, please and thank you. Body, heal!