Ah, there it is, the day I was looking for, the point I knew was coming - breaking point. I felt like ass all day yesterday. Thankfully, a hell of a lot more awake than last week, but miserable. Fed up. Work crap, sleep stress, derby stress... It allll came raining down. And was plugged up with food. See, I'd been doing extremely well at ignoring it, and had been very strong, but now that The Bad Day has happened, I can give it a nod and move on. I feel NO guilt for giving in. Otherwise, it would keep haunting me in smaller fragments and keeping me consistently low. Screw that. I'm better than letting bullshit hang over my head, and my waist line! That said, I don't want to log my food today. Not online, at least. I'll keep that to myself to look at when I feel like a binge again, and remember how completely unhelpful it was.
I didn't get to exercise yesterday because I was wrangled in to a committee meeting I wasn't particularly interested in attending. I should have claimed a Mental (and Physical) Health Day but no can do. Derby 101: Don't tell your prez you can't do something. She'll supply you with at least 3 options to make it do-able.
Tomorrow brings training with it, so it's hard not to be pumped. And I am ready to roll!
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oh I hate when you need mental and physical health days and it just does not happen for you... I needed that day today so bad.
ReplyDeleteI am happy to read that you are moving on. I think that the worst you can do is think that because you had one binge you can just carry on and start fresh next week etc... have the binge, acknowledge it and start fresh that minute!